In the quiet stillness of the night, it's just you and me. I stare at you, sometimes completely amazed that you are really here in my arms. I listen to the sweet sounds of your breathing and your tiny little baby noises, and I am overwhelmed by the goodness of my Father to entrust such a precious blessing to me. I think of your sister and brother, remembering back to when they were babies and wish I had known then what I know now...that these night time moments, so long & lonely, and yet sweet, are fleeting- Just for a short season. And I wish I had cherished them more, and I vow to live in the season with them now, to cherish it, even when it's hard. And I am thankful that I know better this time than to wish these moments away. I watch you sleeping, eyes fluttering, smiling in your baby dreams, and my heart is full and heavy at the same time. So I pray. I pray hard. This night time with you has become a time of silent vigil. Praying for your health & safety. Praying for your purity & your future. But mostly praying that you will love Jesus passionately and follow Him boldly. Praying for the Holy Spirit to ignite an unquenchable flame in your heart for the Gospel and a passion to tell others the wonderful news of the cross. I hold you close to my heart knowing there will be a day when you no longer fit in my arms. Knowing you will grow so quickly, that every day will bring change. And so I breathe you in & I soak in the stillness of these moments...every sleep-deprived moment. And I am thankful. And I praise The Lord. For His goodness. For His mercy. For His great, great love. How He must love us so to give us such beautiful gifts! And so my heart is resolved to use these night time moments with you to love you well and to draw close to our sweet Father who has blessed us with this sweet time. Just you and me. In the quiet stillness of the night. Thank you, Jesus.
